[ g.i. joe-ing ]

I'm sporadically available. sometimes here, sometimes gone, and I'm not just talking about my mental faculties. know that if I don't respond, or if you don't see posts, it's not because I've lost any love for you.. it's just because I'm not exactly working a nine to five anymore.

that being said, I've missed you all--though I must admit I've missed writing even more. (:

welcome back, self.

| so sick |

of people. yeah, that’s right.. I’m sick of people. of their pettiness, of their insolence, their disrespect, and their lack of concern about anything and everything.

I’m tired..

of people. of trying to please, of hoping not to offend, of trying to coexist with.

I feel..

jaded. disillusioned. broken down. run over. used.

and I don’t know how..

to shake it. to [...]

| breathe. |

whew, I’m tired.

tired in an empty sort of way, though, and not as tired as I’ve been. it’s hard to explain, really. I don’t feel hopeless, anymore. well, not most days. I’m just tired of watching what I eat, of working out often enough, hard enough, of writing futilely just to get one scrap of scribbled-on [...]