| helter-skelter, topsy-turvy, out-of-whack |

that’s me today.

it’s hard to find words to explain how i feel today, probably because they’re all swimming around my head bumping into each other like ungraceful fish. (are fish ever ungraceful?) maybe more like swans before they become graceful, or like a whole mess of ugly ducklings.

i’ll give it a rousing try anyways, because it’s amusing to see what i can come up with, and because if i don’t try now, i’ll never try. and we all know keeping things bottled up leads to that inevitable, ugly foaming over effect.. you know, like your soda. (phew, good luck trying to convince people you’re not crazy after this, kaylen.)

i feel like.. i’ve been scooped up out of my life and plopped into someone else’s. like the joke’s on me, like i’m perpetually forgetting something that’s crazy important. i’m thoroughly confused and out-of-whack; walking through my average, simple day like i’m fighting to see two feet ahead of me through palpably thick fog. my head hurts, madly. i don’t care about grammar, or spelling. i don’t ever want to wear anything besides t-shirts and jeans. i don’t want to want things.

when all’s said and done, the only music i can stand today is iron & wine (the shepherd’s dog, specifically) and the soundtrack from the pianist.

this is playing & this is next.

I’m not sure what’ll snap me out of it. good food? good conversation? good solitude? *shrug* who knows..